Things I've learned from this experience...

3.4.10 Things I've learned from this experience...
I TRULY feel that there has been a reason for my family and I to make a move as drastic as moving to Mexico. Another thing I TRULY believe in is that everything happens for a reason. We made the decision within 2 months of our last day in the states and we were able to make it here without a hitch. Everything worked out PERFECTLY for us to come here. Many MANY things have been learned and realized. Not only have I learned how to make pancakes and syrup from scratch, as well as salsa, guacamole and ENCHILADA SAUCE! But this move has AWAKEN feelings and secrets and relationships.
My husband came to realize who he is inside, he is a person he doesn't want to be and is unsure on how to change that. But the first step, they say, is KNOWING you have a problem. His next step will be to fix the things he doesn't like.
This move of ours has given my sister the courage to open up to our mother about WHO she is, someone she's been hiding, out of our fear of being judged.
Making this move has forced the people we love to take a step back, as much as we don't like it, and FORCE us to be wise with our decisions for they cannot help us. They are requesting that we work TOGETHER to figure out how, when and where we come home. I'm sure that was tough for them to do and see us go through hard times but in the end, what they've decided and why... we need to respect. I do know that we are loved, but cannot be held through this.
Moving to Mexico has opened my and my husbands eyes to let us know that “we” will die if “we” are not addressed and cared for. We have been shown that we need to come together and work things out. For whatever reason, the universe is INSISTING that he and I do not separate (which is something we recently considered,) that our only option right now is to make our next move on life's game board as a COUPLE. So that is what we will do.
I've learned that my mom and dad-in-law's belief system isn't WRONG, but instead different, very refreshing and actually opened my eyes on being more willing to forgive and forget. Everything that has happened is in the past, while WE are in the PRESENT. We need to live in the now, for the moment and enjoy every minute of it. Thank you Frances and Porfirio for everything you've done, the help you've given to us, for not judging us for not being able to succeed in Mexico but doing the opposite and providing support for us. FAMILY is what it's about.
So with this I am saying, 2 1/2 months into Mexico, we are moving home. Back to Utah we will go. This has been a HARD, amazing, and very POWERFUL experience for not only us, but our closest family members, the ones with us and the ones we left in Utah. Javier, me and the boys will return home with greater appreciation of what we had. What we let go of. What we gave away. Most importantly, what and who we took for granted. I'm not just referring to modern conveniences, a perfect home with THINGS to fill it, but WHO we ARE and WHO we want in our lives & WHO we need to strive to be. In the end our family has one new goal... to be HAPPY. We gave up a five bedroom, 3 bathroom house with a perfect backyard to come experience poor Mexico, and we will be coming home to live HAPPILY in an apartment. And we're EXCITED about that! I guarantee you, we will have more appreciation than ever for this new home... and more importantly, our family.